The Hole~ poem

Going through the motions
In this vast and blackened ocean
Drinking in this potion
They tell me's for my best
Breathing in and Breathin out
This stagnant air flows through my mouth
Vision fading, thirst of drought
No escape, no peace, no rest.

Awoken from my walking slumber
I reach up from my relm of under
For a grasp, for a lover
A lover of my soul
New light changes the course of time
I feel a punctured hand in mine
With whip torn flesh, and spear pierced side
He lifts me from this hole

Lost sight restored to all fulness
Thirst is quenched, the air is fresh
I see Him there, my soul's found rest
My savior, it is He.
And now i will forever praise
The one who saved my life with grace
How beautiful, the bloodstained face
of Jesus, Lord, and King!

summer~ lyric

this is what im feeling, it may not make sense, but it doesnt have to. thats the beauty of any artform. :)


and here i am, spinning in circles here in my head
dancing alone in this crowded room
my songless tune
and here we are, where the soft winds sway
to the rythem of lonliness, to night's embrace
the sting of love on my skin
an endless summer draws near, to its end.

Stars. ~song

Wish upon a shooting star
that somewhere near, or somewhere far
somebody's there.
I wish I may, I wish I might
forget the world, forget the fight
and say a pray'r
I want someone to have, to hold-
while I'm still young, before I'm old-
to fall in love
But scattered dreams in scatterd brains
bring sunny days these pouring rains
from skies above
Well, love was found and love was lost
and broken hearts aren't worth the cost
or could they be?
See i know that this much is true
my hurting heart seems healed when you
are close to me
oh dont you see
yes or no
I know you know
that love can be harder than it seems
but, wishes made on stars can come to be
yes or no
you have to know
if love is a choice, why not choose me
I might just be the woman of your dreams.
<3

Tide.~

wrote this a while ago...the journy you take in your head and heart when you choose to love someone who you know will never love you back. <3


The fear of the unknown, haunts me to the bone, as i stand here alone, without you.
For right became wrong, in our tragic love song, when i thought all along, that i needed you.
But though i am done, and my song has been sung, and the battle i won for my heart,
I still want you near, to calm all my fear, to wipe the tear that you left as your mark.
And somehow inside, though my love has died, im pulled by the tide, to your smile.
I cannot control, the relentless pull, for my heart to be full, and beleive like a child.
I thought we could be, as strong as the sea, completly free, of this life.
But my faith is fading, for i cant keep waiting, for you to start changing, your mind.
I cant hold much longer, the wave's growing stronger, pulling me to wander, back into your arms
In my twisted mind, while drowning i find, i still want you mine, though you've killed my heart.
The seas foam and roar, tossing me to the shore, as i've been before, this i knew.
And the fear of the unknown, haunts me to be bone, i still stand here alone, without you.

Glory and Power Be

well, this softball season has really pushed me in my skills as a player, but most importantly in my character. God has really used this season to open my eyes to how stuborn ive been to his work in me, and how i ignore his love and then say that i am honestly giving him glory. false. he brought me to a reccord low this season, and has raised me up in his steadfast love. so i wrote this on the buss coming back from one of the last games of the regular season, and it goes a little like this.

And i will sing praise to the God of Jacob
Glory and Pow'r be to Him who has saved us
Against all odds, He chose the cross.
So, I will learn to live and to love
To forgive and forget everything that I've done
I never understood
That He's changing me
For my good. <3

for the blog :)

Set music free and let it fly.
If song cant soar, then song will die.
Unchain the truth that sings to all,
forgotten hymns' forgotton call.
Break the bonds of silent reign,
let joy spring forth through song again.
Oh, set music free and let it fly,
for if song cant soar, then song will die. ♥

just listen~

To all the lonely souls in this dark place
To every wandering heart who's lost their way
Doubting dreamers, waiting for open doors
And troubled thinkers, looking for something more

There is Peace in the Blood of Jesus
Cast yourselves before God's holy throne
He will never turn away the broken hearted
You never were, or ever will be, alone.
His love and His grace will uphold you
His power will conquer your doubt
Forgiveness ever flows from His wounds
His blood will ever pour out
For those whom He calls He will keep
and those who are His are secure
For He alone has conquered the deep
In His light, darkness reigns never more.